Sat. Sept 30th 2006 2:06am

Sleep.....Oh how I Love it ..actually too much due to the fact when just a bit depressed I can sleep 16 hours straight. And finding myself not motivated or caring about much of anything. Self motivation has always been one of those things that I have never quite figured out. Hey who knows maybe in the next 40 years I will catch on :) They say necessity is the motivator for many things. Well one door in the Job dept. has been closed and i find myself ok with that. on to the next doorway. Well that is all for now. Night

Friday Sept 29 1:51 am

So at the moment my shallow depression due to Job situations continues on.... And tho I firmly believe that God directs his children I also know that my timing is not His and I find myself waiting a lot these days. Isn't it funny how God works, in the middle of writing this blog he has a unbeliever friend of mine IM me and opens a door to share with him my foundation of my Faith in God. Which in turns strengthens my own faith . Thanks Lord. Well tonight my spirit is softened to the point tears are a welcome thing. It is time for sleep and Trust that God will continue this work that he has begun in me.
Goodnight and if Faith is needed read Hebrews chapters 11 and 12

Sept. 28th 2006 2:47 am

OK What follows is more for my own eyes then others but feel free to comment if you want.

Present situation: Job change is emanate, Family life becoming harder, Christians seem to rarely practice what they preach, but I could be included in that group. God seems to be untouchable. Wanting more from life is causing me a ulcer. More to follow as I feel need.